I was chatting to a friend over msn today and he told me that he had just turned 28 over the weekend and had spent some time rethinking his life. He said he now finds that he is less keen on "collecting" experiences. Our conversation was fleeting as we were both busy, so I didn't get to ask him why. However I told him that it's interesting, 'cos for me, it's the collecting of experiences that's keeping me going in life.
In all honesty, I'm hardly the ambitious sort of person. Though I do envy the wads of cash that spill from the wallets of the bankers, lawyers, businessmen (you get the drift) out there, I can't picture myself climbing the corporate ladder. Maybe I'm just not cut out for it. Some people strive in corporate environments. While I don't wither and wilt away in such environments, I don't particularly enjoy the environment either.
What then do I want, you ask me. I've been asking myself that question all these years but I've yet to come up with an answer. I know what I WOULD like to be, but getting there seems so impossible. I envy people who seem to know what they want right from the very start. Why can't I be one of those people and why can't the job I want to do bring in the sort of money such that I don't have to worry so much about not having enough of it?
So I haven't found a vocation that motivates me enough. But I do love life and I want to experience and try new things all the time. Most of which involve travelling. So in order to do that, I have to work and earn money. Therein lies my motivation. Thus, unlike my friend, I live to collect experiences.
A columnist in today's issue of Life! wrote about how she is suffering from a quarter-life crisis upon turning 26. She was a little miffed that she wasn't allowed (by her older friends) to complain and whine about her age and the worries about a 26-year-old journalist who earns pittance compared to her high-flying executive friends. I can identify with her - I used to and still do feel this way.
I've been feeling very stagnant for awhile hence I've taken some steps to make some changes in my life. As to what these changes are, my family and close friends already know, and it'll unfold on this blog in the not too distant future. Whether it's for the better or worse, I have NO idea at this point. All I know is that while life won't be perfect, it will be different. At least for awhile.
Posted by DSD at April 24, 2007 12:00 AM